Memories 4 Ever

All memories call us back
Makes us go through all those time
Slowly slowly heart is the memories combine together
And you keep on searching
What have you left back...

Mind goes back again and again,memories are strange, they are inseparable,

Suddenly remembers

some colours,some places,
some food,some restaurants,
some joke,some name,
some story,some railway station,
some colthes,some events,
some letter,some words,
some meanings,some feelings,
some gifts, some greetings,
some flower, some roadside vendor,
some trash,some money,
some act,some funny ,things
some song,some beat,
some style,some scene,
some pictures,some inspiration,
some teas,some pain,
some life,some death,
some fear,some breath,
some love, some hate............



everything about something, something about nothing, it just brings back those memories that you spent with them...you take a step ahead in life...and then pulled again by these memories..


Suddenly you think
Why is God so cruel
Life was better
When all were there before...

But...

God only decides
And brings you to the future
So you should remember
Beautiful memories forever...

別讓深愛變成一種傷痛

有的東西你再喜歡也不會屬於你的，有的東西你再留戀也註定要放棄的，愛是人生中一首永遠也唱不完的歌。人一生中也許會經歷許多種愛，但千萬別讓愛成為一種傷害。生活中到處都存在著緣分，緣聚緣散好像都是命中註定的事情；有些緣分一開始就

註定要失去，有些緣分是永遠都不會有好結果；可是我卻偏偏渴望創造一種奇跡。愛一個
人不一定要擁有，但擁有一個人就一定要好好的去愛他。話說著容易，可一旦做時就真的
很難，不信你試試。


如果真誠是一種傷害，請選擇謊言；如果謊言是一種傷害，請選則沈默；如果沈默
是一種傷害，請選擇離開。如果愛是一種傷害，請不要靠近。可是好多的情況下並不是如此，因為不由得你選擇。

如果失去是苦，你怕不怕付出？如果癡迷是苦，你會不會選擇結束？如果追求是苦，你會不會選擇執迷不悟？如果分離是苦，你要向誰傾訴？好多事情都是後來才看清楚，好多事情當時一點也不覺得苦，然而我已經找不到來時的路。

有一種愛，明明是深愛，卻………表達不完美。
有一種愛，明知道要放棄，卻不甘心就此離開。
有一種愛，明知是煎熬，卻又躱不掉。
有一種愛，明知無前路，心卻早已收不回來。

愛情不是遊戲，因為我們玩不起它。愛是真心付出，要忘記真地做不到。不管歸處將是哪裏，我想都該在心底留有一份純真的美好。從來沒有輕易對別人動心，突然發現自己深深地愛上了你，那種滋味真是難以用言語表達，是喜悅？是悲哀？你叫我忘記，難道愛說收就可以收得回嗎？可以的話也不叫愛了。也許我沒有足夠的勇氣面對現實的殘酷，那?什?是勇氣？是哭著要你愛我？還是哭著讓你離開？估計此時沒有一個正確的答案。



男人的自信來自一個女人對他的崇拜，女人的高傲來自一個男人對她的傾慕。那?為什?我們總是不懂得珍惜眼前人？在未可預知的重逢裏，我們以為總會重逢，總會有緣再會，總以為有機會說一聲對不起，卻從沒想過每一次揮手道別，都可能是訣離。我常常有如此的感慨，也許愛情只是因為寂寞，需要找一個人來愛，即使沒有任何結局。可是愛為什?也如此的脆弱？有時它易碎的程度比玻璃花瓶還容易。

它又如此的堅\強，堅強到即便已把自己弄的遍體鱗傷，依然癡心的愛著，從不後悔。
愛可以是一瞬間的事情，也可以是一輩子的事情。
每個人都可以在不同的時間愛上不同的人，為什?我的愛就這?一次呢？
我也知道不是誰離開了誰就無法生活，可是要真正的遺忘卻是一件萬難的事情，也許正因如此我才不夠堅強。

現在的一切，看似不經意，卻是我苦心經營的結果，此刻我特別希望來一場風雨，因為那樣我身在其中，即使淚流滿面也不會被人發現。世事難料，其實凡事都是在它適當的時候降臨，只是我們沒有適當的心情去迎接它或是沒在意。正如有人說：無論是誰只要在錯的時間裏做了對的事，其結果是可想而知的，其代價是顯而易見的。


因為愛所以離開，因為愛所以放棄。聽起來這話很偉大，很灑脫，可是有誰為了愛真正的能夠離開呢？也許你能，我卻不能輕易做到放棄。盡管有些感情如此直接和殘酷，容不下任何迂回曲折的溫暖.......... 



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珍惜當下最重要

世上沒有哪一對感情會是一樣的

也沒有哪一對情人會是最適合的

兩個人在一起不論時間是長或是短

如果不懂得珍惜 給予 聆聽 包容 以及原諒 那麼

看了幾十次幾百次幾千次的臉

聽了幾十次幾百次幾千次的話

牽了幾十次幾百次幾千次的手

終究會覺得 黏膩 厭煩 不在意


很多人說

人因為不了解而在一起 卻因為了解而分開

也有人說

當感覺淡了 不愛了

再繼續走下去是不會有結果的 所以分開是最好的選擇

還有人說
一次又一次的爭吵 漸漸的連談都不想談了

這時候何不暫時分開 休息一下

給彼此一點時間與空間 尋回重新愛上的感覺

這些根本就是自欺欺人的蠢話



一開始每個人都會去設想對方會是怎麼樣的一個人

當漸漸的了解了 慢慢的懂了 發覺這不是想像中的那個人 所以放棄了

因為感覺淡了 不愛了 就毅然離開了

因為爭吵不斷 想要暫時分開 是為了有重新愛上的感覺

會有這樣的想法跟感覺的人 就只是想被愛而已 心裡想要的愛很膚淺

因為這樣的人不懂愛的意義在哪裡



可曾細想想過

這個世界如此的遼闊 會相遇在一起是多麼難得

一起生活的點點滴滴 曾經走過的大街小巷 那些刻畫的痕跡 留下的足跡

每一個都是最珍貴的 裡面滿滿包覆的都是回憶阿 如此的鮮明

因為不懂得珍惜而遺失了 等到發現時才開始後悔 有意義嗎

當一個人無條件的付出 用無悔的心去愛另一個人

為什麼會這樣心甘情願 因為他想要讓對方快樂 不用煩惱 總是替對方想著

卻因為不懂付出的真心 因而感覺不到 感受不到

非要等到懂了的那天才發覺這個人才是最愛你的 最後剩下的只有他哀傷而已

人都會有過去 有些事情 傷痛 沒有那麼容易捨棄 忘卻

兩個人在一起 一定會有不愉快 會有摩擦 會吵架



如果不去聆聽 不給予安慰 不去了解 不去說開

那麼你怎麼會懂得酸甜苦澀之中所帶來的感動

人不是完美的 當相處在一起時就發現對方的瑕失 比如倔強 任性 壞脾氣

如果不去接受 不去包容 怎麼會享受得到這裡面帶來的溫馨只要是人就一定會犯錯 犯的錯有大有小 不是說全部都要原諒



而是事情的輕重 為了一些小事 一些沒有意義的 沒有那麼嚴重的

就鬧的天翻地覆 堅決的不給機會 不給原諒 又怎麼會看得到對方為你而改變

兩個人相愛 多少都會想像 但想像能代表什麼 什麼都不能

因為一切都是發生在現實上 不去努力的調試配合 那還談什麼戀愛





愛一個人很簡單也很難 在於你用不用心 懂不懂什麼是珍惜

什麼是給予 會不會去聆聽 怎麼去包容 以及該怎麼原諒

不要只是想著被愛 期望被愛 這樣會很悲哀的

這些都是需要時間去學習 哪一天懂了 了解了

你就會把握住 因為真正的幸福其實就一直再你身邊而已

What swimming Mean to me...

When standing beside the pool and get ready....I stand there take a few deep breath and release it out slowly...clearing my mind everything.i know what to do ,and how to do it....my mind visualizing the swimming movement, my soul separate with my body, i just like third person watching myself swimming...Left ,right ,push pull ,kick ,breath ,repeat....

I remember not to look at anyone and stay focused...I hear people whispered all around...I see the bottom of the pool and i can't sell anything...I feel my body gliding through the chlorine water...I can feel my body Temperature increasing, the warm blood running all over my body.....
Butterfly...hand pull push..dolphin kick...lift half body out of water..breath...I feel the water with my all finger..I is Amazing ,the feel is like flying above the water...
I may not win in the pool.And i may not win on the board.But I feel like I won if my time descend......An I count that as a win in my heart.....

When  floating on top of a pool, letting the bottom slowly float by underneath, can truly feel free.. Finally can escaped from the bonds of gravity and moved into your own world where nothing is pulling you down. No one can talk to you because sound does not travel well through water. So you are by yourself  and see what has been disturbing you and your life. Swimming not only allows you to think about your troubles and stress, it also gives you a chance to release them by using the power of your own body. It is truly an amazing experience.

Swimming  is a meditation ....The breathing is very controlled and regulated and the movements are repetitive. This enables  me to develop incredible concentration....^^

                                             I like white color swimming cap.....

Sunday morning, rain is falling..

Sunday, 31 JULY 2011 Raining day.....A little rain never hurt anyone.It cools the air and freshens everything.Running in the rain makes you feel alive.I sat grumpily at the table, watching the rain hit the windows my brain goes blank just like the video projector without film....what a wonderful scene listen to the raindrop heart feel calm ....it is like a painting ...

                     Raining bring new life...

                                         Raining sometime bring alot of meaning....
Rain... the very word makes me happy. Rain was a companion through out my life. Tickling drops of water seen on the grass tops in the mornings, the damp roads, drenched walks... the whole smell of rain fell memories!

The first memory of Rain starts with my schools. I sure that will be people same feeling with me and would have experienced it. Every academic year starts with rains. Opening an umbrellas, drenched rain coats and uniforms, windows closed bus journeys,class rooms filled with dampness and darkness, those childish plays in the pool of water in roads, damp shoes and socks, the smell of washed clothes all over the house, fear filled cold and damp nights... all mixed up memories makes me too nostalgic.....The memories playing in my mind some sour,sweet,and some are bitter..

Rain was just rain till I was into Secondary school…Rain slowly turned Romantic...Waiting her in the rain make her precious tear drop...When she tell me that she concern me will get sick...Actually I want to tell her that "thanks for caring me so much" i feel so touch and my tear come down just she don't realize it...the tear mix with the rain...The long walks through the lonely paths with her, fingers crossed, shoulders together, hearts joined! Those were the days when I used to pray for the rain almost everyday, just to catch up with her and share ourselves under one umbrella! Rain! still playing in the memories..

Rain suddenly turned to something bad when I went to work in big city...when waiting for bus or train the people will become so crowded,people try to avoid from getting wet...what is my concern in that time is i hoped that i can went back home before rain getting bigger....hope that i wont fall sick because no one will take care of me...that time i started realize that i am growing up but still I used to cry with the rain! I started to hate rain....

Now being in Kampar, the rains are distant memories. Missing my rain a lot here. When it rained for a moment last night and the damp roads in the morning made me think about all those sweet memories associated with rain,think of my hometown when raining... A lot more to write. But let those be in my mind like a rain filled cloud. It might pour down some other time!^^

After raining the sun come out again it is the cycle that will never end..

A little Bike love

a little bit of bike love 

Why we need a Bike?? See all those benefit....

 When is the last time you rode a bike? is “childhood,” when riding a bike ,it will help you feel like a kid again.
Why is cycling great ? “Because it is not a weight-bearing activity, bicycling is a wonderful way to get into an exercise routine without stressing out your knees or hips compare to jogging....so for me i like to cycling because can explore new places that cannot explore by car and have wonderful experiences .During my bike trip i always do 5 activities so that make the trip even more fun

 1. Bring a camera, take photos   

For me i just want a simple trip,so i will not carry any high resolution camera because i think it is risky and increased the weight of the bicycle make the trip more tiring...no need a fancy camera, just a phone or a digital camera will do. Take as many pictures as you can and then upload them to look back and remember for years to come.The part i like the most is after back from trip when viewing back the photo can straight away recall back what we doing during the time when photo had been taken,and anything that happened during that time...People love looking at pictures uploaded to Facebook. You can also share your photos on other side.

2. Attach an overhead video camera, take video
Create an interesting video,and edit nice music on it....

3. Write a travel blog/journal
Writing a travel blog allows to share the experiences and capture moments, what we see , learned and how is the feeling about them. It gives an advantages of reflecting what we saw and what we learned while along the trip.

4. Meet people in the area
If traveling in an unfamiliar country ,town or place, we use to visit the local store and shops. Talk to the local people, ask questions, accumulate knowledge about the area, get interested in the places around.still remember i had been go to one small town,and i drop by the fruit store there,the local people stare at us in a weird way because through our outfit they knew we are outsider,on that time i started feel worry because we in a unfamiliar places ,had this kind of feeling is normal. After purchase the banana (my favorite fruit)the shop keeper started ask" where we come from? ""why we come here?"After we reply her ,she look so amaze with my answer and said that we are doing job well done....after that give me discount for the banana...so happy....

5. See tourist attractions and sights that make the vacation memorable

Do things and visit the attractions, the things that will create memories years from now, after we are  long forgotten most about the trip.

Actually the best cycling conditions are: quiet country roads to suit all levels of riding, beautiful scenery, and have a  rivers or lake to cool off in… Weather conditions also consider important to cyclist.

Reborn

       Time past very fast ,some time i not realizing that time is running just  like water .Some of my frend that same age with me is getting marriage ,some of them is travailing  to Portugal for working purpose and me still stay in small place call Kampar doing the same thing again and again. After attending the soft skill by Ms Kim Chow i had learn a lot and i realize that many thing need to be change in order to improve myself .Now i starter jogging in the morning ,because is not only an exercise ,it is discipline for me to have a healthy lifestyle.need to sleep early and to wake up early in the morning ,after sweating feel good and have a cup of old town white coffee... wow life is great.^^

   I wish to go through this natural heaven door...I want to know what on the other side....